Sept 30, 2011

Tonight I had a great time on a hayride/bonfire with the ladies from my church. Met some new people and got to get to know some people better. These ladies have welcomed me into their "inner circle" so easily and warmly. And they have a vibrancy for God that I feel I'm lacking.

On a side note, there was a lady there that recently left the church mainly because she wanted one closer to home. But she came tonight and we fellowshipped. I, though, I don't know anyone truly well, believed that she was included in every way even though she had "left" the church. I think of our recent church switch. I realize the terms were very different, but it makes me so sad that I feel awkward around those fellow believers. There is one particular lady who I looked up to as a mentor. I always called her for advice. You see, my mother is gone. So, I looked to this lady for that help. I still sometimes get the urge to call her, but I can't. We are one in Christ, but not on this earth I guess. Think I'll have a bit of a cry. Which makes no sense since I wasn't down until I wrote this post. Way to overthink and ruin a good night. Lol.