May 24, 2011

Jasmin seems to be over most of the stomach stuff. I risked letting her go to school today. She's not contagious and she really wanted to go. Top that with the fact that there is only two days left, I caved. :) She did great at school and we even spent an hour outside when we got home. She ate a bit of noodles and then passed out on the couch at 5:30. She's already in bed. Here's to hoping she's sleeps until morning.

School ending this week. I'm looking forward to summer. I enjoy the lazy days. Staying in our pjs until noon. Spur of the moment trips to the zoo. So, we don't have any specific plans. I do have LOTS of ideas. My only concern is the kids fighting. They seem to be doing that a lot lately. I guess they'll get used to each other eventually.

May 23, 2011

Still learning that parenthood is filled with little decisions day in and day out. Today, I chose to give Jasmin a little bit of egg because she didn't want anything else and she was begging. She had been doing so much better. Well, she fell asleep and woke up awhile later. She went downhill from there. She threw up again twice. I feel so bad for giving her the egg. Trying not to beat myself up over it.

So, she'll miss yet another day of school tomorrow. :(

May 22, 2011

I can't sleep right now. I think it's because I took an accidental cat nap while snuggling Jasmin this afternoon. She's been sick for two days now. She takes after her father. They both seem hold on to the stomach bug longer than Dylan or me. She napped earlier in the morning and she has been asleep since 5:30 this afternoon. I know the sleep will do her good. I just wish she were able to eat and drink. She's had a bit of rice and a bit of soup. That's all for two days. She's not drinking much either. I'll call the doctor tomorrow.

In other news, we joined our new church this evening. I couldn't be there, but Eric went to the meeting. Still feels a bit strange. I still miss the sense of family at our previous church. It's kind of hard to explain.

This is the last week of school. Thank goodness! This has been a difficult year for Dylan especially. His teacher just didn't "get" him. I'm sure she's a great teacher to most kids, but she was the best for him. On that note, I better try to sleep. I do have to get Dylan up in the morning.

Jasmin and I are camping out on the couches again tonight. It just makes middle of the night sickness issues easier to deal with.

May 17, 2011

I have been reading the book "So long insecurity, you've been a bad friend to us" by Beth Moore.

Tonight I had coffee with a very sweet lady from church. I enjoyed talking with her so much. On the way home, I started thinking about our conversation. Then, I started worrying that perhaps I said the wrong thing here or there. So, back to the book I am reading.....I really struggle with insecurity in relationships. I have struggled with it most of my life, but in the past few years some strained close relationships has kinda sent me over the edge. It occurred to me just a few weeks ago that God has blessed me with some great friends. So, if those wonderful women seek my company, I can't be all that bad. :) And if my wonderful husband puts up with me, I can't be all that bad.

But I am trying to reconnect with the most important "opinion". God's opinion of me. He created me a certain way. He created me more shy, introverted, and reserved. That doesn't mean I don't love to have a good time, to talk, to laugh, to be part of a group. All that to say...I'm starting to be at peace with the person God has created me to be. I do want to push myself to meet new people, to try new things. But I want to rest in the fact that God loves me just as I am. I want to stop over thinking my words. I doubt if anyone else considers them as much as I do.